If you like to be in control like I do, you will understand this feeling I'm about to describe. Have you ever wanted something to be within your control, but it just isn't possible? Recently, I have been on a quest for answers, but it seems every corner I turn, there just aren't any answers. This is frustrating. Especially for me, someone who has been in control, and been incredibly fortunate all of my life. I feel like I position myself for good things, and I like to think that I'm deserving of good things. I am a believer that good things come, and that positive thoughts are necessary. I also think that I have learned from each one of my mistakes in life, and hope that I'm a smarter person for this. When you do all the right things, you say all the right things, are you not destined for goodness? I can only hope. There is so much I'm questioning right now, yet they are things out of my control, but I can feel them within my reach, so this waiting is killing me. One would think that because I'm such a planner, my life was all planned out... however that has never been the case. I like to plan events, and little things, but when it comes to my life.... I've only seized every opportunity that's come to me, that's how I've landed where I am in life... none of it was planned. So I guess I believe that the best laid plans are unexpected, but right now, I have some expectations and I just wish I knew what the plan was. Does that make any sense? This feeling is uncomfortable for me. I want to wake up in the morning and know what "the plan" is, but right now I just have to wake up every morning and see what happens. It's ALL out of my control right now, except for my attitude.
They say what happens to you is 10% and your attitude for dealing with it is 90%! I have many friends who live this so well, so I'm going to join them and keep my attitude positive! Because that IS in my control right now!
When I get answers, you'll hear about them!
I feel for you. It's hard to be in control all of the time and so, so tiring and draining. I've discovered patience helps too and things usually fall into place. Yes, attitude is HUGE. If it wasn't for my attitude, I think I'd be in a looney bing ;) Love you and things always work out in the end. You'll get your answers soon.
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